So it's been a while since I've posted. Things have been difficult, and while writing usually helps me keep things in perspective, it's something I haven't been able to do. During the last six weeks Haley's pain has continued to escalate. She is limited in what pain medication she can take because of stuff she already has to take. We try to comfort her, keeping her calm and semi-distracted because that's all we can do. It's not all we can do, because we pray constantly. That's a lot because I know God still hears our prayers, but it feels like we should be doing much more when prayer for our Mighty God's healing is the most we can do.
Just over a week ago, a wonderful specialist in Atlanta has agreed to see Haley. We beat our heads against walls trying to find a doctor that would see her for the polychondritis and were rejected every time until this doctor. We are praying for him to be healthy, and for him to have wisdom when he sees Haley on July 28th. It was so miraculous for him to see her next month. We waited the entire summer last year for an appointment for her to see a pediatric rheumatologist. This would feel like nothing in comparison if it wasn't for her nose.
Her nose is where this whole polychondritis stuff started. For months, like since at least December, she would frequently complain of pain in her nose. I thought she had a pimples in it or maybe it was a side effect from something she was taking. It did look reddish at times but didn't seem like a big deal at all. When I finally remembered to mention it to her doctor, I quickly knew it was a big deal and that he should have known about it sooner. Last month, he did try to treat the inflammation by tripling her dose of prednisone for two weeks, but that didn't help and the side effects were horrible for her. He then decided that this was more than he could handle and gave us more names to contact. Now, after much (and I mean MUCH) prayer and waiting, she has an appointment with a big time rheumatologist that I believe will figure her out. But right now her nose is still what we refer to as "angry". Reddish, swollen and inflamed. The shape of her nose is changing. She is losing cartilage. We are praying for her cartilage to be healed and for this attack to stop. Now.
Still in all of this God is here. He gives us rest and we have peace in knowing that He is in charge. My heart breaks because my child is in pain but God knows that. There is a purpose in all of this and He still shows himself to be faithful and worthy of our trust. We have been given encouragement from strangers and really amazing friends in surprising ways that are clearly from Him alone. Haley is proof of God's grace being sufficient. We are so blessed.
